I woke up this morning and it was 2012. How did that happen?
It’s the third day of the year, but it’s the first that feels like an actual day because I had to work. The first and second floated by in a blissful haze made possible by paid vacation days from work. Thanks, Emory. On this third day, I hit the snooze button a few times. Between each snooze, I curled up under the blankets to retain the warmth lost from extending my arm to the nightstand. After doing that a few times, I just grabbed my iPhone/alarm and brought it into bed with me. It’s 2012, after all. Beds aren’t just for people, but our technology; my boyfriend and I typically share the sheets with a minimum of a laptop, Kindle, Blackberry, and iPhone. By the time I finally hauled myself up, I had 15 minutes to get ready for work. They flew by pretty quickly, as time often does when you’re brushing your teeth, picking an outfit, making sure your dog goes outside and actually pees as opposed to just chasing squirrels in the backyard, etc.
By the time I had spent ten minutes in my office, I realized that not only was it 2012, but 2012 felt an awful lot like 2011. Which, incidentally, felt a lot like 2010. And then I felt panicky because I’m turning 25 next month and I still don’t feel like a responsible adult, which is scary not just because I want to be a responsible adult, but because I sort of don’t want to be one. In the car yesterday, I said as much to my boyfriend. I told him that I was scared to turn 25, because it felt like I wouldn’t be a kid any more. “You can get away with a lot when you’re 22, 23, 24… but when you’re 25, you’re expected to behave in a somewhat adult-like manner,” I explained.
“You should act like an adult when you’re 18,” he replied, because he is infinitely more reasonable than I am. And he’s right. So in the interest of acting like an adult, I am going to begin holding myself responsible for accomplishing my goals in 2012 and beyond. Here they are:
– Writing. I miss writing. Hence this blog. (For the record, I will note that I have attempted to blog in the past. It always seems to end in me erasing everything after a few months because I’m embarrassed by it. I’m going to try not to do that this time).
– Exercising. I miss exercising. I’m not going to make any crazy goals here, because it’s winter and it’s cold and it gets dark early and I’m a slacker, but I’ll say that I’d love to get in one good workout per week. Maybe two.
-Learning. Here are some things I am going to do: move closer to fluency in Spanish, move beyond strumming to serious fingerpicking on the guitar, learn piano, take better photographs. Oh, and apply to grad school.
Hopefully this blog will serve as a place to reflect upon those changes. What are you planning to do in 2012? How will you make it different from 2011? Please feel free to share.